Calc 2

In 2012, I didn’t know I had autism. I didn’t really understand my ADHD. If you’d asked me at the time, I would’ve said I was still dealing with my mother’s death from 4 years earlier. I had no idea that my dad was continuing to emotionally abuse me. The fact that I had PTSD couldn’t have been further from being discovered. I had never tried SSRIs, let alone weed. I didn’t even know I had any mental health issues whatsoever. I lived for the weekends, when I would get drunk and laugh with my girlfriend. Saturday and Sunday were oases that motivated me to keep crawling through the grit and heat of weekdays in my small singles dorm room at my university.

My Calculus 2 professor was woman so old, she used the PA system wired into the walls of the classroom. If she hadn’t, the people in the back wouldn’t have been able to hear her speak. She was about the height of a mailbox, and looked like she weighed about as much as a couple of bowling balls. I wasn’t foolish enough to ask her age, but she couldn’t have been younger than 70.

She was passionate about her subject and her job. But, when she would raise her voice, it would come out through the PA system. One day, she kicked out two girls who were chatting. She went over to their desks, gathered their belongings in her arms, and lead them out the door. You may be asking yourself, “How does a 5-foot, 100-pound, 80-year-old math professor kick two college girls out of her class?” The answer really is quite simple. It’s easy to do, really. All it takes is being terrifying.

I didn’t go to class for weeks after that. It might’ve even been months. I hated myself for not going, and I knew what I was doing was setting myself up for failure, but I couldn’t help myself. No matter what I did, for some reason, I couldn’t bring myself to go back. Every time I tried, her furious voice would ring in my ears, and I would shrink away from the thought. Those mornings, I didn’t even leave my room. I would eat handfuls of peanut M&Ms and pretend not to be in if friends knocked on my door.

At the end of the semester, with exams approaching, I panicked. I flew into a storm of studying.

I got a B in the class.

I’ve changed. I have autism. I’m pretty sure I’m a genius. I’m only being arrogant if I’m wrong, right? Well,

Eugh what the hell is this font. Sorry about the long title, but I couldn’t just not say anything. Then again, I had other things to say, which is why I wanted to write in the first place. So, if you’ll excuse me:

Axiom 1: I’m an autistic genius
Axiom 2: Weed is well-known as an apparent creativity boost
Axiom 3: Weed seems to make my autism “worse”
Axiom 4: Monologuing is a symptom of autism

I could probably write some pretty good books about how I view the universe, with weed enough and time.

Channel 10 Rant

An extended rant of my thoughts on the Channel 10 debacle is now available in the auditory variety. (You can read the first rant here)

You can listen to it either by clicking the link below or by clicking this link.

Length: 7:40:00
Size: 7.01 MB

digg it

“That is Bullsh*t!” [update]

Every time ravenpanic dies in Gears of War, he yells “That is Bullsh*t!”. There are other varieties, such as “That is SO Bullsh*t!”, and “That is TOTALLY Bullsh*t!”, but there are also those occasional screams of variations of the core message he is conveying including, but not limited to “That is COMPLETE Bullsh*t!”, “That is Bull-F*cking-Sh*t!” and, my personal favorite, “That Bullsh*t is BULLSH*T!” I sent him a message about this, polite as possible under the circumstances, and he replied with the following voice message:

Oh f*ck you, you little b*tch, you wish you were better than me
You ain’t gonna show me, you just a little f*cking 12-year-old who thinks he’s bad*ss
‘Cause he has little pubic hairs
I have f*cking pubic hair and I’m older than you, so kiss my *ss

Way to be classy, dude…way to be classy.

(I’m 17, by the way)

UPDATE: I sent him a text message over XboxLive containing a link to this blog post via tinyurl (http://tinyurl.com/2uwbve) and he replied with the following voice message:

What’s that, your f*cking site for f*cking gay porn?
Kiss my *ss you little b*tch

Busy Today

Probably no blog posts until late afternoon/evening 😦

Instead, here’s a bad joke!

Q: When is a door not a door?

A: When it’s ajar

Why is 9/11 a popular topic NOW? [update]

Why NOW? It’s the news flavor of the month! It’s repulsive!

digg search: “911”, last 30 days, sorted by most diggs

digg search: “Twin Towers”, last 30 days, sorted by most diggs

digg search: “WTC”, last 30 days, sorted by most diggs

UPDATE – Check out this data from Google Trends:

You can observe huge spikes in each of these graphs:

http://www.google.com/trends?q=9%2F11 

http://www.google.com/trends?q=Twin+Towers

http://www.google.com/trends?q=WTC

Video: Fix My NES

This is quite an amazing video – it reminds me a lot of Requiem for a Dream towards the end!

[See the video here]

Boston police blow up traffic counter chained to lightpost

Click here for the video…this is just pathetic. I live close to Boston, and have no idea why the city has recently fallen down the apparently slippery slope from irrational to paranoid, to just plain stupid.

[watch the video]

[found on digg]

Downloading Movies to your Xbox360

So I saw Wrath of Khan and I figured hey, why not. I’ve only seen snippets of it on TV, and it’s only 240 Microsoft Points.

OH NOES! – I was in the middle of writing this post when I decided to start the download of Wrath of Khan. An error message popped up:

The download could not be completed. Please try again later. Any points you used for this transaction have already been deducted from your balance and will not be deducted again. Status code: 8007000a

I looked at Major Nelson’s post about the Video Marketplace again, and saw that he gave a link to the Video Marketplace Forums. I saw that there’s a thread about this exact error!

Some people are saying that they restarted their console and everything was fine..although some people are saying that they restarted their console and nothing is different. I’m going to try to download it again and if it fails again, I’ll try restarting my console.

Ahhh….it’s giving me the “Download Again” dialog…good times! Uh oh…it’s not looking good! (I’m typing this as it’s happening) Ahh! The same error popped up! I’m going to try restarting the 360. I’m doing it the nice way, by the controller, instead of the power button on the 360 itself. Good sign – after restarting the 360 it still is saying that I can download again…but it’s not looking too good. It’s holding at 0% completed. There it goes! Status code: 8007000a. Trying again…no; again…no; again…wait! I think the little bar moved! Wait a minute…I hope that this works! I shall use my awesome magic super 1337ness to make it work! Come on…I believe in you! Hmmmmm….It’s still at 0%…OMG! TEH ROXXORZ, it’s at 1%!!!! WOOT!

The solution for Status code 8007000a is to keep trying to download it, apparently.
It’s at 3%!!!

OK!  Now on with the original purpose of this thread!

I’m downloading Star Trek II The Wrath of Khan for 240 Microsoft Points.  The file is 1.51 GB.  HERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO IS EVEN THINKING OF BUYING ANY KIND OF VIDEO OFF OF THE XBOXLIVE VIDEO MARKETPLACE NEEDS TO KNOW:

When you purchase a video off of the XboxLive Video Marketplace, you do not own it.  It’s a rental* that expires one of two ways.  The provided Media Usage Rights describes it well:

The license rights to this content is limited in its term and duration to 14 days from its original date and time of download or 24 hours from the start of its initial play, whichever occurs first.  You may view the content as many times as you want for this period of time.

Something else that you NEED to know, and if you know it, you NEED to keep it in mind…Just because it is only 240 Microsoft Points ($3), if you have less than that already, you will need to purchase at least 500 Microsoft Points ($6.25) since that is the lowest available chunk of Microsoft Points.  But hey – keep in mind that I don’t mind.  I’m downloading Wrath of Khan as I type this, it’s at 17%, and I’m going to enjoy it.

Not un-bad news

Remember this?  I got a 100% on the written portion of the test, and was doing great on the driving when the man asked me to park backwards in the shape of “r” where the “i” part of the “r” was the space that I was backing into.  For some reason, and I tried this several times after I left the DMV and failed then as well, I kept ending up straddling the line; always half a space to the left.

I did everything else well, and the guy said that I could come back on Monday and redo it.  Although that is kind of good news, in that I don’t have to retake the entire test again, it means that this weekend I will be without Gears of War, since my parents have restricted me from being driven anywhere besides the DMV until I get my license.  This sucks in a big way, and I mean big time…I’m really pissed off.

That was then, this might be right now

(This is a continuation of this)

Due to some incompetance on the part of the people I called and talked to the DMV (which is about 30 minutes away) I was missing 2 key pieces of the proverbial puzzle that, when hypothetically solved, allows someone to take the Driving Test.

I drove there, stood in line for 40 minutes, found out I was missing what I was missing, drove back, and am waiting for my Mom to fill out the parental permission sheet thing as I write this.

But wait, there’s more! Not only do I still have to take and pass the Driving Test, but I also have to make sure that my Mom doesn’t reach what she’s calling her “breakaway point” which would be the point where it is so late that this task of getting my license is encroaching on her downtime in the day.  That is to say that even if I do successfuly pass the driving test, I still might be forced to wait until some other day until I can buy Gears of War!

Holy crap, this sucks so much it’s not even describable!  Stay tuned for more horrid misunderstandings, mistakes and mishaps!